Hi you bunch of mongrels. I really appreciate the concern expressed by you.
Yeah, i've been out in the wilderness metaphorically speaking. I'm only the owner-builder and trust me, I am getting professionals to do the work - but I am definitely in the project manager's chair. Prob has been just how long it's taking and the stress of having a seeming wall (in my head) of endless tasks and problems has really taken a toll on me. I could write 10 pages on how and why I find myself in in my current mental state. Even the plumbing and stormwater isn't simple (ask Hooksey

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But the project progresses. My main drama lately is that I have a $20k blackbutt floor already down and no fukken windows and doors - that to me is arse about, but let's not go there. I found a joint that can source the IGUs from an external supplier and have them here in 3 weeks (compared with another quote that was 2 1/2 times higher and 8 weeks after payment). I've paid in full - now waiting and hoping. Trying to keep the place dry in the wettest La Nina-est seasons we've had in decades, all held out by flimsy bloody tarps. Delays of 4-6 weeks sourcing special timber (that should be unobtanium in this current building environment) hasn't helped. Oh yeah, a hernia, covid, a delay in the hernia op booked for May as a result, a horrendous flu, the op - finally in August, the recovery (6 weeks NO lifting anything heavier than 5kg!), a mother in law who suddenly suffered kidney failure and is now on full dialysis. Just a few things to make life a little easier for me
If you really want an indication of where my head is - my SFQ is literally 99% complete but I can't drag myself mentally away from this build and the anxiety it has caused me to actually go out into my little workshop and finish it. I'm talking: fit the primary drive, ignition, starter and alternator, the pistons, barrels and head, put the motor, exhaust and carbs on and set up the Ignitech. In my normal life that's a day's work. I will get there and there is light at the end of this dark tunnel I find myself in.
Thanks bigly to Cam for getting in touch to check in on me. And Tippie and I talk regularly. I've got a Cowboys and Indians tent set up in the backyard (ie the swamp) for his creature comforts upon arrival from Norway in a few weeks time.
Cheers all,
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